Fulfillment

Hebrews 3:14

For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence stedfast unto the end (KJV)

It's officially summer and I feel all the amazing things that someone in a beautiful city of Savannah should feel. Hopeful, ready to get tanned, being outside, and most of all whose BBQ am I going to! However, there's one thing that has been missing and I've been wrestling with it unintentionally. That is the excitement of being with Christ.

June 5th (Birthday!!!) This is the year of Grace and Fulfillment!

When Did This Start?

Doing a deep dive and being honest with myself I realized this happened right after I redeciated my life to Christ within the summer of 2023. I was so excited to dive deep into the Word. Understand the fruit of the spirit, relating with other Christian women, and truly understanding the Father from a space of peace and not condemnation. Even though I wasn't as excited about the cleaning process I learned how to embrace the Holy Spirit. Thats more of a spiritual cleanse once you accept the Holy Spirit into your life and yes, the Holy Spirit is a person and and not an it. Think of HIM as your friend whose always knew you and has your back forever because that was the sole purpose of Jesus leaving Earth to give us his advocate. (John 14:16)

So, while I was going through my journey with Christ I realized th

at God takes us through levels of grace. The same grace you started out with in the beginning of your salvation will look differently. Grace in hebrew is called Chanan (verb): which means the action of being gracious or showing favor, and is often used in the context of God's mercy and kindness. The grace level that I carried then was growing however, there was some unlearning that needed to be left behind and I wanted to rush mentally through that process. In this process I felt like I wasn't doing enough and in return it was a mirror image of my thoughts of God not doing enough in me. Let's be honest with outselves as humans...who really wants to take a test that could last for a while. Within that rushing there have been things that I've allowed to slip through the cracks because I was too hard on myself and in return forgot that Christ is the source and we should never RUSH him to do a good work in us.

Bakery: Calhoun Cafe Creations (ig: @calhouncafecreations)

Where Am I Now?

I'm more in an unlearning space of building more truth and wisdom in Christ. I had to shift and renew my mind in the direction of where the Lord is taking me. I realized that the reason why I rushed was because I wanted to already be good by now or have the promise that the Lord shared with me quicker and it doesn't work like that. It never was work in the first place but you are saved by grace alone. (Ephesians 2:8-9) I understand that the Lord has blessed me with his gifts and I want to use them for his glory of sharing kindness, patience, and love.

I hope this blog has helped you in some way. If you are having concerns or questions about the Lords direction don't be afraid to dive deeper in him. This is a relationship and not a ritual. When you understand the difference you'll understand more of the space of where he wants truly fill you up in. I'm forever going to be in the process of being filled because I've asked the Lord to never leave me and He never will even when I let go of his hand. I pray that you grow with Him more than without Him.